Maybe I’m just hoping?

Slight back story but I’ll keep it short😂

So last July I found out that I was pregnant with twins (miscarried once a few days after I found out then lost the 2nd twin in middle of August). The only reason I took a test was because my periods were allover the place so I had no idea when I was due, also my boobs were horrendously sore to the point I couldn’t even touch them. Gained quite a bit of weight but I suffer from mental health problems and I have spells of eating loads then not eating at all so I just put it down to that. I’ve never suffered from sore boobs/weight gain during my periods.

Anyway fast track to now, i ovulated 6 days ago but since around 8 days ago my boobs have been ridiculously sore and heavy. I’ve had to go out and buy a load of sports bras because my normal bras are so painful to wear, not to mention the fact they hardly fit at the moment. I started to lose weight and I was noticing it. Clothes were getting looser, people at work would tell me I’d lost weight and I felt amazing! Since my boobs have been hurting I’ve now noticed I’m gaining weight again. My diet hasn’t changed because lately my mental state has been stable and I’ve not had the weird eating spells, so I can’t even put the weight gain down to eating. I live a fairly stress free life also. Happy, healthy relationship, love my job more and more each day, family relationship is great, money isn’t a struggle etc.

I’m so terrified to take a test because the thought of a negative just breaks my heart. Are there any other reasons I could be experiencing these symptoms before I just bite the bullet and test?

P.S please be nice😫