Today I found out that my husband is leaving me. We have a toddler and I just had a baby a few weeks ago. I am honestly heart broken and I don’t even know why. He was a shit father and husband. He would slap our toddler across the face and then get mad at me for getting mad at him. He would never hang out with us, not even go to the park, but would jump on any opportunity to go party with his friends. He never helped with the kids and would blame everything on me. Like him misplacing something would turn into him yelling at me for moving it even though I never touched it. I know we’re better off apart but it’s still so hard to let this happen. I feel like a total failure. How do you move on? 😭

**edit**

I honestly stayed with him because I hoped things would get better. He’s in the army so I was just waiting for deployment (I know that sounds awful). But I thought he’d come back more appreciative of us and what he has. So dumb 🙄 After he slapped him this last time, yes it’s happened more than once 😔, I told myself that the next time he’d threaten divorce I’d be all for it. (He loved to tell me he was divorcing me after any little disagreement and I’d always fight for him to stay) And I am all for it this time. I need to be, even though it makes me sad for some reason. Because my children really do deserve better. I know I should’ve left the first time he started slapping our child. I just didn’t know how or what to do. I feel awful that I didn’t do anything. But I live thousands of miles from my closest family member, i have no friends out here, and he controls all of the money... I have no access to the account. So I couldn’t just leave. But this time I am. No more fighting to live this shit life with him.