Vent 💔

I miscarried at 12 weeks in November, this week is my would be due date. I’m going on 7 unsuccessful cycles of trying. This cycle I’ve been so off I’m so many ways- but generally I’d be ovulating this weekend/early next week. Well this week the past few days I’ve had clear ovulation symptoms- my opk yesterday afternoon was negative but still fairly darkish so I thought hm maybe next couple days. TMI but I’ve been having tons of EWCM so I took another opk this morning and my test line was so much darker than my control line.

My husband has the freaking “man flu” I’m so upset- my heart just hurts. I’m almost positive since we haven’t done anything this week I’m going to be out. Idk if it’s the fact that it’s my due date that makes this so hard and yet another failed cycle. I had 7 close friends and family members all due around when I was and they are all having their babies now and it’s a reminder that we don’t have ours. And the pregnancy announcements just keep pouring in. My SIL just announced last week their expecting and now every time we see her continuously talks about it and shows her ultrasounds.

I just don’t know how much more I can take of this 😢