first period since ectopic removal.

so it begins. I dont know how I feel about the return of my cycle. Had an ectopic removed May 4th 2018 along with my right tube. Ectopic definately hurt more emotionally and physically then my previous miscarriages probably due to knowing the baby was growing perfectly (just in the wrong spot) where as the miscarriages I could convince myself happened for a reason (something wrong with the baby). Now my cycle is back I am sadly happy that it is safe to ttc again but it took 2 years from miscarriage in 2016 to concieve our ectopic and I don't think I can go through 2 more years when I was so close to it again.

Its hard to explain to hubby how I feel about it but sometimes I just want to not try anymore so my body can stop disappointing and failing me. best wishes for everyones recoveries.