Crush on my mind

So to sum it all up I have found myself in a position where I have decided to crush on this guy from work. I think I started to develop feelings after picking up on subtle hints that he may be interested in me. We’re communicating more often at work but not talking about anything really relating to our personal lives- not yet anyway.

My problem is that I’m trying to jump 12 steps ahead and I’ve begun to convince myself that I shouldn’t become too attached to the idea of him and me. I’m mostly just typing this to rant because I am most definitely an over thinker and, as you can probably see, my thoughts have taken over! I’m telling myself that he’s not good enough for me, that I’m not good enough for him, blah blah blah!

I’m very stubborn and perfectionistic so this is quite difficult for me to mentally process. I am quite an independent person and I have walls built up to protect myself from heartbreak because I have never been in love and I don’t want to be if know that things will only lead to sadness.

LONG STORY SHORT, I am afraid to love.