🚫please help me (friends with benefits)🚫have to read until end!!

so me and my friend we have been friends since last year (end of the year). me and him have been just talking as friends and we caught up heaps and i was comforting him because had just gotten out of a 2 year relationship when me and him started becoming close friends. basically my friend wanted to become closer than friends with him and he didn’t want that.

anway me and him still were good fiends but like we would always make sexual jokes and things and just talk about sex and he said he would eat me out and fuck me 😍💋

so this has been happening for a while but me and him still talk as friends but this month and the end of last month, me and him have been sending “xx” to each other at the end of sentences and he always asks me to go to his house awwh his so cute and sweet. he always complements me on how pretty i am and cute and he just always complements me and his friends are always like saying things about me and him and how cute we are.

so basically this has all been happening a lot recently but sometimes me and him talk on and off like we will talk for a few days and then we will just stop :( it makes me sad because it just confuses meeee. so we had a party on the week and things got heated.

i wanted to go back to his house to get drinks and he said to me to go back after the party was finished. and the whole night he was getting close to me and he starts kissing my neck and running his hand up my thys and starts touching me down there. and this didn’t all happen straight away but over the course of the night. and he was also like putting his mouth on my boobs 😍💖. eventually as the night went on he was getting closer to my face and i was on his lap and we hadn’t kissed yet but eventually he just kept pecking and then we finally kissed on the lips properly.

and he just the whole night was putting his head in my boobs and kissing my boobs and slapping my ass. and he said to me look if you don’t want to do anything i totally understand you we don’t have to and if you came back to my house we could just watch movies and eat so much food. i found that so sweet and then we just kept kissing and then we looked at each other in the eyes and he said to me “why are you so beautiful” “your so petty” and i was like “noooo im not” and he would keep squeezing me and hugging me while i was in his lap and he would say “you so sexyyyy shhhh”

he was teasing me all night he kept teasing and i was like to him “your such a teaseee” heheh. then we went inside on the lounge and i felt bad i rarely teased him all night but then i finally like touched his abs and then slowly went down onto his dick through his pants and he was making small noises. then i went in to give him a kiss and it turned into a full on make out session and it was fkn amazing!!!

it went forever tooo and he would bite my lip sexually and choke me and i loved it so much he made me so horny and he was so hard. then we decided to go back outside and we just kept making out but then we went back inside later on and my friends and his friends were there and we were cuddling on the lounge and making out lots and i was on him and like we were grinding. then i gave him a hand job under the blanket and he was moaning and choking me it was so hot and it went forever. it just went on the whole night i just wanted to fuck him there and then ugh. i completely forgot how we’re friends!!!!!!!!!!!!! he lead it all on from the start.

so the day after he asked how i was and we were talking and everything and now we haven’t really spoken that much😞i just want more of him sexually but i also just want to have good chats about life with him againnnn we have spoken today and stuff on and off but idk. i found out he told his friend he wants to be friends with benefits with me but nothing more because it will ruin our whole friendship group plus he is tired of relationships because he got out of a 2 year one last year. like i want to be friends with benefits with him but idk what to do ??!!! do i talk to him about it? i’m too scared is this a bad choice can someone pleade please give me advice on this situation :( 🚫