12dpo bfn! Second round of clomid

I guess its safe to say i give up! After years of trying i give up! Im tired of hearing God this and God that ! God doesnt want me to have children ! He doesnt care about me anymore! My God would listen to my prayers! He gives babies to women who clearly arnt fit to be moms and overlooks me! Im done ✅ i cant keep getting depressed! Dreams about bfps just to have bfns i cant do this shit anymore!