Depression

Hiya all, so I’ve suffered in the past with depression. I got off my tablets myself and had been ‘fine’ for nearly two years. Recently I’ve been really bad.. pregnancy hormones and all that but it got to a point where I had to go back to the doctors as I’m not eating, I’m not sleeping and I’m so weak and blur which is what I was like when I was bad the first time round with my depression. I’m now on tablets again and I’m so worried that it’ll affect jelly bean. I’m 11wks today and I know I should be excited about being pregnant but I don’t feel it and I feel guilty for even being pregnant. My fella is being so supportive with everything and I couldn’t wish for a better person to be by my side. I was just wondering if anyone else is going through this too?