they would of been turning 1.

This may sound silly but my baby from my 1 first miscarriage would of been turning 1 assuming of course they would been here on my due date. I've been ok for a few weeks now haven't secretly been crying. today my hearts been a little more sad and my eyes have been full of a few tears. Now not only am I thinking about her ( in my heart I felt both my miscarriages were girls) but her sister I lost over Christmas. I'm glad they have eachother but I still can't help but feel sad and wish I got the chance to get to know them. I feel so heart broken right now and I don't want anyone else to know and of course I started my period today. still praying for my rainbow and ever so thankful for my beautiful son I get to hold every day!