Another month down the drain.

So as I sit and stare at this digital test with a giant NO- on the front and the group of red dye tests my stomach just sinks. To think that I was actually pregnant in April almost 5 weeks when I miscarried. Something I wanted so bad just got ripped away from me. As I sit and stare that this test it makes me so upset that I can’t even do the one thing a women can do, carry a child. I’ve only been down this road for 6 months but it feels like a life time. I’m 2 days away from my period and I wish it would just show up so I can get it over with. My heart goes out to all you women who have been trying for years and years you are truly strong. My heart goes out to the women who can’t carry children at all. You are very strong. This journey seemed so easy before I started. But now that I’m in it I realize it’s not. Baby dust to everyone.