Some days I can, Some days I can't

I dreaded the day that I would become the only one of my friends without a child. That day has officially come and my emotions are all over the place.

No one tells you that life after 30 not only comes with lots of fulfilled hopes and dreams, but also with broken hearts and immense sadness when you're

dealing with infertility. It comes with countless, "When are you all gonna have kids?" questions and struggling to find the time to hang out with all your mom friends. You feel left behind in a sense. It's so hard. With every announcement you scroll past comes twinges of jealousy. With every congratulations comes tears. With every tear comes guilt. We've been married for 8 years, trying close to 7 years and have been told it's just not gonna happen naturally at this point. We're going to have to do IVF and I've been struggling to lose these last 10-15 lbs to even get started because I eat when I'm sad or stressed, which create more stress. Today's can has turned into a big can't.