Sexually assaulted by boyfriend

I broke up with my boyfriend about a week ago.. it gave me some time to actually look over my relationship. Since the beginning of our relationship he’s wanted to just start having sex. I was only 14 at the time and was raised where sex at young age was shameful. I was not comfortable and he convinced me to only way we could love each other is if we have sex (he was my first boyfriend). So I went along with it. We started doing it more often and I really was not comfortable. I would have panic attacks that someone would catch us and I just didnt like the idea of it and never felt anything but every time I said no he would get upset with me so I just did it to make him happy. He made me do it in places like school and store bathrooms as well. This made me have severe anxiety and he did not care. Some times he would just push me against the wall and do what he wanted like make-out with me and he said things like I can’t wait to fuck tonight even after said I didn’t want to. He was very controlling and pushed me into fucking him. He wouldn’t do me any favors unless I fucked him. It got to the point where every time we fucked I would cry afterwords and he did nothing but call me out saying I have no reason to cry. One time I went to him and told him he raped me and he convinced me it wasn’t rape because I was dating him. I said ok out of fear for more than half the times we fucked, he could tell by my face I wanted to stop but he kept going. I then reached out to his ex who he proclaimed cheated on him and I found out that wasn’t the case. She told me he had raped her even before I told her my story. Everything I knew about him had been a lie. I am over with him but I still don’t know what to do with this information only a few close friends know..