possibly triggering title idk but, I don't feel like i belong in this world

possibly triggering, I don't think it should be but just putting a trigger warning just in case.

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simply put I don't feel like I belong in this world. the reason being is idk what to do with my life. I like my job currently as a FT A trained medication assistant (TMA) but at my work pay isn't technically low (for the job anyway and compared to other places around me) but I'd still be living on a pretty tight budget. I get paid 13.20 an hour working 72 scheduled hours per pay period (2 weeks) but I usually do about 80-94 hours per pay period since there's always shifts to pick up. but anyway I want to get paid higher which means I either have to get lucky and find a very good paying job or go to college and get a different degree but when looking at different degrees and such nothing seems to interested me enough I don't want to pay for a degree if I'm going to hate my job you know. I know I can't be anything that does anything with needless like a nurse or phlebotomy, I just feel like there's not a job for me (that pays higher anyway)