Breaking point

Sooo I think I’ve pretty much reached my limit with my boyfriend. Today, June 10th was our 2 year anniversary. I had been reminding him for weeks now, “Our anniversary is coming up” I even reminded him last night, “I’m so excited for our anniversary tomorrow.” He woke up early this morning and left like he does everyday. No “Happy Anniversary”, no kiss or gift or anything. Not saying that it’s necessary, but damn he didn’t even acknowledge the day.

I’m frustrated because I’m pregnant & our daughter is due at then end of August. I don’t think he’s cheating or anything like that, but it’s like I’m pulling teeth when I try to get him to spend time with me. He spend all of his time hanging out with his co workers or with my cousins and uncles and I’m left at home looking stupid. It’s always “I’m just helping so and so out” or “I guess I get in trouble for helping your family with this or that”. “I’m not doing anything wrong” but the thing is I never accuse him of anything. I tell him if that’s always going to be the first thing out of his mouth then he makes himself look guilty.

So when I get upset & I say something he pretty much just brushes off my anger. Saying things like “It doesn’t matter, I still love you regardless.” Then show it! That’s all I’m asking. I’m starting to feel like he doesn’t love me; he just loves the fact that I can cook, wash his clothes & the sex. Like he’s not actually trying to build anything with me. Idk if I’m reaching because of my hormones from being pregnant, but I’ve just had enough. I feel like I’ve been alone this whole pregnancy, even though I have my family. I didn’t get pregnant by my family though, so I need him to be there for me more.

I just needed to vent. I feel like I’m losing it. Or I’m this close to flipping out and calling it quits.