This will probably disappear among the masses

I just needed to vent and perhaps someone who can relate will also find comfort knowing they aren't alone. My SO and I are TTC and this will be our first month of trying and I will enjoy all the love making and fantasizing and I do have good hopes. But sometimes I see these people posting and it's there 3rd year trying and I just pray I won't be like them because I couldn't handle the strength it takes to keep trying that long. My heart had a mini break my last period when there was a possible pregnancy but when the next day came and AF was there my heart sunk a little. It's so incredible to think you're carrying this little life inside You and thinking of names and the type of person they'd become and praying they get his nose because mine is God awfully big and that would be a shame . My heart was singing and still is, trying to entice what my heart desires so badly. I just know that I am ready and so is my love. I will try to be paicient and practice my lullabies and humming