I feel so broken.

my boyfriend and I have been together through a lot of stuff over the last three years. I have two kids from previous relationships but we parent them together (although my son goes to his dads every other weekend). our relationship goes in spurts of him being involved in us for a couple weeks, to him doing his own thing and only thinking of himself for a couple weeks. I have no issue with him wanting to do hobbies and things he likes. but I really feel like he never wants to be around me and he never listens. I'm 11+ weeks pregnant with our twins. I try to bring it up and he never listens. I know I'm not the best at listening or communicating. I tried to have a rational conversation with him last night. I said that I didnt want it to get heated and if it did, I didnt want to talk anymore and he would need to respect my boundary. so I came into the conversation making I statements and not blaming him. I told him how I feel. well, he ended up getting really mad and saying how he can see why other people have left me and how terrible I am. I felt I went into the conversation really mature and he was just flipping out making me feel like a pos. well he started yelling at me that I became really scared. I was crying and I was begging him to stop yelling and just give me space to cool down. he kept telling and I kept begging. he finally left and he was pacing around the living room saying he doesn't want the babies and the only reason hes here is because of my kids. I feel broken. I feel scared of him when he gets angry. I feel like he makes me feel like I'm some horrible mom and a pos. I feel like I would rather be alone than when we fight like this. I feel so low right now, I just want this sadness to end. is this emotional abuse? I just broken as a woman right now. :'(