I hate people who are trying to conceive don’t conceive for a long time, like my husband and I, but people who don’t want a baby but end up getting pregnant any way, like my best friend. Last night my best friend told me she was pregnant with guy she has only been dating for a month. I have fixed feelings about the whole situation. 1 being I’m jealous. I want a baby with my husband have been trying since December. 2 she is in love addiction, which means she falls in love with everyone she meets and I mean everyone. This guy is going to break her heart just like all the other guys have and I’ll have to be there picking up the pieces like always. 3 she still lives in a half way house and can barely afford rent which Is 500$ monthly.

I think most of all (this is going to be a bitchy thing to say) I’m jealous. And it sucks. I had a baby 2 years ago and had to give him up for adoption because I didn’t have a job or an education or anything. So I made the best decision for my baby and gave him a home where he could have anything he ever wanted and it was the hardest thing to ever do.

I do t want my best friend having to move back home to Iowa just so she can raise that baby.

I’m just ranting. Thanks for listening.