Sexual abuse help me forget...

I was raped last night. I will not go to authorities with this info. I was drinking but only had a few. I have a high tolerance. After maybe the second drink I got dizzy and tired. Went and passed out on the couch in the formal living room. I told him I couldn’t move. I told him to stop. But it was like the more I resisted the more he forced himself on me. I was frozen. I don’t feel well. Everything is running through my head at light speed. I need help. I need something that helps me relax. If anyone actually reads this and has experienced it please tell me how to forget.