just want share something

so I'm apologize for my broken english. But I realized I was lesbian since 13years old I guess because I for some reason googled lesbian porn on old phone then it was to expensive to have smartphones. Then after a years I forget that about gay thing's. And some how I find out OITNB it was couple sex scenes "lesbian" of course I got turned on and felt weird and again I forgot about gay shit xd I think I was afraid what people will think and all and after couple years at 17 I spent more time in internet like youtube and watching more tv shows and movies related to LGBT and I learned at youtube that you decide who you want to be like be yourself. I was broken kid like my parent's was divorced then I was 7 years old. So like I decided to forget for while that big problems and watch youtube and it helped. Funny now I live with my grandma and I feeling myself but of course I don't come out to my parents because I don't feel like I want now or later but maybe one day I will idk xd I finished my 12 years in school and I come out to my two friends it was weird but it was easy xd I had long distance relationship and two months was amazing but she broke up with me because she didn't love me anymore like okay woman... And now I friendly with my country girls and trying to find love of my life and have one day a kid or more who knows. btw thanks for reading xd have a good day🙏