New to group, trying after misscarry:(

Hello sisters I'm here for support and love . I am also here to return prayers and thoughts . We lost our sweet baby on 5/20/15 worst moment in my life , his/her heart stopped and it stopped growing. Now soon we are able to try again , I know our Lord has a great plan for me , but feeling angry and scared due to the fact it took 4 years of not trying to get pg and husband isn't supposed to give me any more babies due to low count from medication from his horrible hand accident in "11