I hate my body.

So on June 7th I found out i was pregnant after I missed my period. I was so excited! Then on June 11th and 12th I started bleeding heavy at first-then it turned more into blood when I wiped and cramping-I was so heartbroken(as I’ve had 3 previous miscarriages.) so June 13th comes and I’m no longer cramping or bleeding. June 14th I go to a clinic they confirm my pregnancy and we do a vaginal ultrasound and im measuring a week behind, but they said everything looks good, my tubes look fine also. So i sit there extremely confused. So I tested almost every day since the 7th. I tested the 11th,12th,14th and today and my second line continues to grow darker. I have an appointment with my doctor on Wednesday an hopefully they’ll have answers for me. Also I will be asking about progesterone levels. I’m not saying I’m not miscarrying because I believe I am. I don’t know how to feel about this whole thing.