ttc..

i been trying to have a baby for the last year and every month its more and more heartbreaking.

i been shopping for baby a few years clothes in both genders, playpen and more. planning this baby ... i wanted to get pregnant last year in May and have the baby in Feb 2018. so i tried May-Sept and it was sad because i went without a period for 3 months with false postives, it was when i seen my dr and had blood work done i found out i wasnt. now this May came and i tried and tried and now my period started today. i feel like a failure. planning my daughter i was pregnant the first month.

today i finally broke down and cried to my hubby. i feel like a loser. maybe its not ment to be but i want a baby so badly.

idk what to do. ..