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So I went thru my bf phone yesterday (I usually never do) but I did it because a couple weeks ago he would freak out if I tried to even touch his phone! So yesterday I grabbed it and went thru it! I seen that he talks to girls but deletes their conversations! 🤔 Don’t get me wrong I don’t mind but like why delete the conversation if you have nothing to hide!! Like I talk to people but I don’t delete anything because I don’t want them to come at me side ways and make up shit! Anyway I seen that he met up with some girls!! I screenshot the messages and sent them to my phone because I wanted to talk to him about it but when I do he always makes me look crazy so I had to have proof!! And I asked him who was the girl (from the message) and he told me ! And then I asked him why would he meet up with her and not tell me! He said the last time he seen her was last summer! That they’re just his friends! So I was like okay! And I left it Alone then I went to check the dates and it said that it was from June 9th 2018 🤔 and the day they met up was last Sunday on the 10th at 8 pm! So I went to check my messages to see what he was doing when he was texting me and he had told me “he was outside “ (home) at that time!!

So I don’t have any guy friends because “I’m not allowed to “ He said he doesn’t talk to them anymore and then I found this!!

I’m not even mad that he still talks to those girls I’m mad at the fact that he straight up looked at me on my face and lied about it!!!! And he continued his day like nothing!! He straight up looked at me and said “the last time I seen them was last summer!!” Like if you’re not doing anything bad why lie!? It makes me wonder what else he has lied about!! I honestly don’t want to talk to him because I’m just mad how he lied like nothing!! I want to end things with him because i just don’t trust him since he has done it in the past!! I just don’t know what to do!! Any advice? I guess I’m just scared to start over again!! 5 years of my life!! It makes me feel unwanted!!