Insecure and not feeling pretty anymore

I’m trying to make time for myself. For years I have been in a deep depression and have actually forgotten how to dress properly with cut and pattern, how to do skincare and makeup. I want to be myself again. My stepdad was abusive in multiple ways, but we have fixed that, I went through horrible rumors about my religion at school, that is in the past. I still have a fear of having my pictures on social media because of that (I’ll probably take this post down later because I was traumatized from a selfie before). My anxiety is still pretty high but it’s getting better and I feel like I’m changing for the better. It’s been almost 5 years and I want to treat myself. Any ideas?