So devastated

After TTC for five months we went to get privately tested today. People said to me not to worry this early and it was perfectly normal for it to take this long. But I was so worried we went anyway. And this afternoon we were told that my husbands sperm count is severely low and that the chances of us conceiving naturally is around 5%. We are devastated. I thought I was doing my usual thing of worrying unnecessarily and that we would be ok. But we’re not. I’m so scared as we’re about to enter a whole new world of stress. But I’m so glad I listened to my gut and got tested. To any people out there trying to conceive I would say this - If you can, get yourselves tested asap. If we had listened to everyone, we would have been trying for another 7 months and it would have been wasting our time. Knowledge is power so even though I feel like shit right now, I’m so glad we found out when we did.

Sorry if any of this comes across wrong, I’m very emotional right now and I’m just writing this from the heart without editing. Xxx