I have major anxiety and ptsd, maybe bi polar (doctors disagree w/each other on my diagnosis) In May of 2015 my favorite cousin died of a drug overdose. REALLY messed me up. Several days before the funeral, I woke up in the morning and had forgotten that my cousin was dead. My husband (fiance at the time) had to break it to me again, I went to the hospital and they couldn't find any problems with my brain. Couple months later, I woke up BAFFLED by the fact that I had a wedding band on with my engagement ring. I had literally forgotten getting married in the past few weeks. Big wedding, honeymoon...I couldn't recall ANY of it. My husband told me I keep asking the same questions again and again. I don't remember the incident. The memories come back within hours. About a year later, I wake up and have 2 grand mal seizures. Ambulance ride that I barely remember, the hospital found nothing wrong with me again...but took away my drivers license for a year. Ok, so fast forward to now, 2 years since the seizures. I've woken with amnesia about 7 times (says my husband). I've asked to NOT be take to the hospital unless I'm in danger. I have horrible dreams ALL THE TIME that I don't know where I work or what time I need to be there, and I don't know how I'm going to do my job. I wake up asking my husband (over and over) about where do I work and when do I have to be there and what do I do. I DON'T remember asking these things of him. Eventually my memory comes back, within a few hours. I do feel yucky for a few days afterwards though. Kinda confused and all the colors look weird and things taste different. I've done research and found 2 things that fit well, but are SO RARE. Temporal global amnesia...could be...but temporal epileptic amnesia fits my symptoms and experience almost EXACTLY. Only thing is, it's only seen in elderly people. I'm confused and somewhat terrified. Anyone have any similar experiences? I'm done telling my psychiatrist about stuff, because the "try this pill for a few weeks" game is going to get me fired from causing instability. I take depakote er and xanax. Self lowering both drugs since they obviously aren't working anyhow. Been prescribed the stupid xanax for like 5 years and the doc wants me off it.