This might sound ridiculous to some but...

So basically I love My Chemical Romance and literally I start crying every time I hear one of Gerard’s vocal things in a song. But it’s not just that, I cry about them for at least an hour every day and specifically fan edits with Gone Too Soon by Simple Plan in the background and it’s their little faces that break my heart and I’m writing this after crying for two hours already 💔 I tend to hold my emotions in a lot because I don’t like seeming weak but the other day I was watching the video I just talked about and I ran out of my class crying and went into my friends classroom (this was before school started because I’m always half an hour early) and she hugged me and even though she doesn’t listen to them she understands how much I love them because they’ve basically saved me and it’s them that keep me going. I know this probably sounds ridiculous but this has been going on for months now and nobody really knows except for the other MCR fans I talk to on Instagram and my friend from the other class. It’s like the second I hear my mam get near the stairs I dry my tears and if they aren’t gone I pretend to be lying down so she can’t see me crying. I wish I could tell her I just feel like she would tell me to get over it and “they broke up 5 years ago, you didn’t have a clue who they were then”. I have no relief for this pain I feel, I can’t find anything to help. It’s also just knowing I’ll never be able to see them live, never have a new album to fangirl over and never get excited like everyone else I know because deep down I’m just needing them back. I feel like a puzzle and MCR is my missing piece. I’m sorry I’m just pouring my heart out into this because I can’t contain it all the time and I need someone to talk to.💔