My story

June 2nd was the worst day ever. I had had some cramping that prior week, and a little bit of spotting. No big deal I had stopped the birth control pill 2 months before, and I was supposed to be ovulating that week, so I just thought maybe my body was just kind of thrown off from stopping the pill. I had also had my period 2 weeks before which was extra long. I had also thought was related to stopping the pill. I had taken multiple pregnancy test hoping for that positive. everytime I had a negative. although I did have a ton of pregnancy symptoms. well back to June 2nd. it was just a normal day for me. some cramping still. I went to work, i worked until 11pm, and went home. 12am I went to go pee, I got up and looked in the toilet. there was so much blood. I told my boyfriend we needed to go to the ER immediately something just wasnt right. I'm not supposed to have my period for 2 more weeks, and it was just to much blood, so off we went. when we arrived they immediately took me to a room, and explained to me it might just be a crazy period. then all came blood work, and a urine specimen,. The doctor came in about an hour later. He tells me I'm pregnant, but with the bleeding you're describing it sounds like a miscarriage. ok this is crazy, and alot to take in at this point. I didnt know I was pregnant, and now hes telling me I'm losing my baby. next was the ultrasound. I could tell by the ultrasound techs face something was off. an hour later the OB doctor comes in to tell me I have an ectopic pregnancy. my heart sinks again. He told me at that point he wanted my hcg levels to reach 1500 so he could make sure this is what their seeing. He said it still could be a normal pregnancy. My hcg levels are 1100 at the time. so I was going to be admitted for 2 days. So I was thinking maybe there is hope that this could be a normal pregnancy.. 2 days later more blood work, another ultrasound. My levels had dropped, but the ultrasound confirmed this time an ectopic in my left fallopian tube. they immediately took me to surgery. I cried, because all i could think about was how stupid my body was, and I had to give my baby up. there was nothing I could do. after surgery I learned that my tube was already rupturing, he removed half of the tube. I've never been through anything like this before. I had 2 healthy pregnancies prior to this one. never in a million years would I have thought something like this would happen to me. pregnancy loss is a very real thing. not only does it hit you physically, but emotionally, because there's nothing you can do to stop it, but the only thing that keeps me going is knowing that my baby went to Heaven. I'm praying for everyone that has to deal with a loss, because it's one of the hardest things you'll ever have to go through. God bless everyone.