Invite to a Pity Party

I am feeling so self-conscious and I’ve never felt so insecure about my weight. I feel like women my age (35) have an excuse because they have kids or are having kids, and careers. Then I look at myself and I think, what’s my excuse? I don’t have time to do my makeup in the morning, I hate my haircut I just spent $200 on a day at the salon and I’m terribly unsatisfied.

When I was in a serious relationship he liked my ass big too, unfortunately only the very few blessed or “photoshopped” women have all the curves in the right places without the stomach and arms and legs that naturally come with it... when I was skinny, I wanted an ass and hips and tits, now I’m 30 pounds heavier and got the ass and the hips, still no tits, and love handles, saddle bags, and arm flaps to go with it... there was a brief moment in time when I was feeling killer confident about my body... but I was also dating a total jock-strap who took me with him to the gym 5 days a week. That was last summer and as soon as school started back up in the Fall and then the holidays and stress and sugar... and then minus the boyfriend, and I’m feeling more insecure than ever. I can’t even get my ass to the gym even though I bought the membership.

I don’t know how to juggle all of it- work, school, barely a social life- the most exercise I get is running... LATE, that is! Running late IS my cardio and sprints for 4 blocks 3 times a week just isn’t cutting it!

This sounds like a solo pity-party and maybe it is... but I saw a couple similar posts on here and felt like this was the appropriate place to vent it out. Hopefully some of the other women here will read this and can relate to my aggravation and lack of motivation!

Either way, I’m grateful for finding a place to let off some of this steam and pressure I’m putting on myself daily!! Xoxox