is this abuse? *long post/rant*
the guy I've been with since I was 15 is I think mean to me I don't know if its because of my past that I think hes mean or if he really is please help
hes made me run away
hes thrown hot sauce in my eyes
ripped up things that belonged to my son that I lost
In 2016 I found out I was pregnant and he had beat me up with the girl he was leaving me for he said he only made me run away with him for "free p*ssy" and he never loved me
after he found out I wasn't "lying about being pregnant" he came back
before I even had his baby he tried to kill us and himself
and now he calls me a fat useless whore says nobody wants me or cares about me
hes never loved me ect
last week he hit me in front of our son.
he says I deserve what he does and he shouldn't have to apologize because I asked for it and I'm a bad wife and mom.
or that I should kill myself
I don't understand if I really do deserve it or if I'm just being crazy??