not pregnant 😢

Here I am at 4 in the morning sitting next to my sleeping husband crying because I'm still not pregnant. I am so scared that I'm not going to be able to have babies 😭. He has two daughters from a previous relationship that I love to death. I feel resentment that he has kids with another woman, and I may never get that blessing 😢. Why is it that she gets to have his babies, and I cant?!?! I have ALWAYS, ALWAYS wanted to be mom. That's one thing I know without a doubt that I could never do wrong. Why do women like myself, who want to have babies more then anything seem to struggle to have them or can't have them at all?!? Then you've got all these other women, who get knocked up by "accident" and then turn around and have an abortion. It makes me absolutely SICK!!! Again, here I am at 4am, sitting next to my sleeping husband crying with all this crap running thru my head. I am so sad and depressed, all I want to do is cry!!!!! 😢😢😢