Had a bad birthday

My friends and I were supposed to go out with me on my 21st birthday to an amusement park and a bar afterwards. They bailed the week before and didn’t wish me any sort of happy birthday. I know it sounds childish and stupid but I felt terrible. My husband also forgot my birthday until the last minute and refused to go to an amusement park with me since he doesn’t like them. He acted like the whole thing was a chore. He brought me to dinner and was on his phone most of the time. When we finished he was talking about his emails, and I’d rather he didn’t bother trying at all if he was going to act like he hated it so much. He was rude the whole week and the day of. I basically cried my birthday away and I had asked him previously if we could at least sort of celebrate since it was my 21st and I wanted to dress up and feel special for a day.

I’m just so tired and sick of everything. My so-called friends just take advantage of me and my husband is a selfish ass most of the time because he’s sociopathic. I don’t know why I’m still here. I hate my life so much.