Feeling close to the finish line.

I’m 2 weeks postpartum with my second baby. My first is a year and a half and I feel like they and my husband deserve so much better than me. I’m a stay at home mom and my husband works third shift so I am the only one take care of our kids, feeding diapers and I clean the house yet it just doesn’t seem like that’s good enough for my husband. I have been depressed for awhile but it seems to be getting worse and now I’m having thoughts of just killing my self. I don’t know what to do but i Just can’t get the thoughts to go away.