So Confused and need advice and maybe so money to talk to that might be going through the sake situation

I've had crushes on both male and female and I have no clue what it means and I always thought it was weird and different and tried to deny it because My grandparents and parents are very "traditional" in the sense that they see it as a bad thing and not normal amd tjey joke amd make fun about it but I'm very confused and I would love some advice or someone to talk about it too who might be going through the same situation. Also I'm 14 y/o turning 15 in July.