Pharm this summer

This summer I’m taking micro lab, micro lecture, and nursing pharmacology. I have a test every week in pharm, my third test was this week.

For the two tests taken before today I studied my butt off but it’s nearly impossible to learn everything I need to in a week. We have to cover over 13 chapters a week for the tests... It wasn’t working for me as I got a D on the first test and a hard F on the second. I was feeling so down that I decided studying was useless, I’m not retaining or learning the material properly, and I was feeling extremely depressed over it. I thought I’d be able to handle the large course load... I was wrong.

For my test this week I did not study. I looked at maybe three 5-10 min videos and skimmed some topics that weren’t even detailed. I sat down expecting a hard F again... I almost killed over when I saw my grade. It was the best grade I’ve had in this class! I got a 78%, it’ll probably raise to a B or close to it after the teacher reviews the questions... I literally guessed on 98% of the questions. A majority of the class is failing this course (only 5 out of almost 50 passing), a lot of people that studied diligently all week failed this test too. I just can’t believe it... and it’s not the first time this has happened.

Last week I had my first micro lab test. The night before I got a little crazy, got super drunk and didn’t make time to study. I just did the quick review and was expecting an F. I got one of the highest grades, I was almost at an A. It was higher than those that studied hard all week again. I took the test hung over even!

I’m not one who studies well anyway and find that when I study the hardest I do my worst (it seems anyway). Usually I do study a day or two in advance... these times I didn’t study though and I’m so blown away. I can’t explain it...