Getting anxious

I am so anxious and frustrated this month. AF due tomorrow, I have had some cramps but I have also had some strange symptoms that I’ve never had with AF before. I keep testing with my cheapo tests and get negatives but all I want to do is get that positive!! My boobs are slightly sore, which is weird because normally with AF they are insanely sore, and I have had a lot of clear, egg white discharge the last couple of days. Like, more than when I’m ovulating. I’m hoping this is it but of course I’m expecting the worst 😢