Sad and depressed

Jennilee • TTC # 3 since June 2014
So I'm just on here to vent.. EVERYONE around me is getting pregnant. My one friend just had an abortion, one just told me she was pregnant today and has only been with the guy for 2 months and I know at least 15-20 others that are expecting. It makes me so sad, depressed and sick to my stomach. I'm over here with 2 kids and am re-married. My husband wants a baby of his own so badly and I feel like I'm falling him as a wife bc I haven't been able to do so thus far! I had an ectopic pregnancy in 2006 with the removal of my right Fallopian tube between my 2 kids which were born in 2005 and 2008. Haven't been able to get pregnant since. I've tried about 6 cycles of just clomid and I ovulated but didn't get pregnant. Then tried clomid/gonal f/ovidrel/2 <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">iui</a>'s and still nothing. I'm currently on just an injectable cycle with gonal f/ovidrel/<a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">iui</a>'s and I'm hoping second time's a charm! They are trying to stimulate my left ovary as best as they can since that's the side with a tube. I just feel like it's not going to happen and have no hope left in me. I really don't wanna spend 15 grand on <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> but if I have to I will, it'll just put us in a rough spot financially. Anyone else feel this way? Conceive on just injectables/<a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">iui</a>? I just wish I still had some hope left in me. It doesn't hurt as bad when the tests are negative I guess. :(