Dear ex,

I don’t know who you are anymore. When we were together you were so much different. You were caring and kind and I loved everything about you. We had our ups and downs but we tried to stick through it the best we could. But then you stopped replying to my texts when you were gone or when you did it was cold and heartless and hurt a lot.

I knew from then we wouldn’t be together very soon after you came back and I was right. I did the breaking up and you ultimately agreed it was best but shortly after we split you asked me if we could have breakup sex. When I said yes to it back then it was because I was still hurting from everything we’ve been through.

But after taking a while to evaluate it I realized it wouldn’t be right. It would make me feel worse and I’d lose all the progress I made trying to move forward but nothing I said mattered.

I tried explaining that to you and you kept telling me I lied about wanting to do that but no matter how many times I explained that it wasn’t and wanted for you to understand you didn’t care about a single word I said.

And after waiting a little I told you I want for us to remain on good terms so if there’s any way for that to happen I’d be open to it and you said if I have breakup sex with you we’d be on better terms. You won’t compromise and I feel so forced into something I don’t want to do because it’s not good for me.

When we used to be together you told me if there’s ever something I don’t want to do or didn’t like then I didn’t have to do it because it’s my choice so why is this different? And all I get from you as an answer is that I still gave consent either way. You don’t know how hurt I am I have no choice in the matter and the only person its gonna benefit is you while I be forced into it.

You were never like this and now that I have been trying to get back out there and start dating again it’s more hard and i feel like shit because you’re making me do this. I don’t know think I’ll ever be able to look at you the same way I did before