I just need to vent and get some emotions out. It just sucks to have lost my baby. Being told by doctors id probably never conceive then being extremely happy . And out of no where that being taken from me. I get depressed easily due to the fact I've always been on the heavier side i always got bullied. I lose weight ill feel great and bam something negative happens and my weight goes crazy. I'm at the biggest I've ever been. Now im scared ill never lose the weight so i can carry a healthy pregnancy. Im scared ill get pregnant and get bigger than i am. After i found out i lost my baby i got extremely depressed and till this day i cant get out of it. It just sucks to have lost your baby and blame your self.