damn it

sorry you guys had to let it out don't have any support all these beautiful babies all found homes with in my sisters and me for our kids so their mom had parvo and I guess they got it too it's so hard to love something so little and get taken away in a blink of an eye we lost one last night might be loosing them all due to that parvo my baby sister my other sisters and I experience it with our first family dog (nilla) she's been gone almost 7yrs now soon will have to go through with all these beautiful babies ugh why do am I such a baby when horrible things happen I hate when I put so much love and time feels like it's getting ripped out of me I can't do it I can't go through it again it hurt me seeing all this happen how do you all cope?