recovering from an eating disorder

hi,

so since I was about 7 I remember thinking I was fat. I’ve always thought I was fat.

When I was 13/14 I didn’t eat for a day for the first time. I off and on starved or only ate tiny meals.

When I was 17 I lost a lot of weight. I’m 5’2 and was 103 pounds. Due to not eating and dancing 5x a week for hours. I would eat maybe 700-800 calories a day.

Me probably around 110

My lowest weight, 103

Me around 115, started getting better. Told my mom, gradually started gaining weight again. I was still pretty active so I gained gradually. This was my freshman year of college

This is me now, just finished my sophomore year of college.

It says 122, but the dr said I was 124. I gained a bit of weight due to not being as active and being in a relationship (he feeds me sooo good and he LOVES my stomach)

But I still feel like a cow.

Should I try to loose weight?