Jealous of my nieces .. 😭😭

So growing up I never had my mother, she passed away when I was 5 years of age. My dad was depressed my ENTIRE LIFE. He never paid attention to me nor my brother. He never knew when we were home or gone. I left and went to Atlanta, Ga for 3 months. He didn’t even know I was gone. The only time he would talk to us was when we getting yelled at or playing the PlayStation with him. It was annoying growing up. I am now 21 years of age. I live on my own with my boyfriend. I play GTA five with my dad and nieces all the time. When it is time for them to go to bed, he tucks them in. They says he’s a better father than their real dad. Because their dad is doing the same thing mine did when I was growing up. And it breaks my heart. Why can’t I have the dad they have with my father?? 😭😭

Am I overreacting ???

My dad apologizes for it all the time and feels bad, but it will never take back the years we lost together !