Pregnancy

Nova

So around this time last year I conceived June 15 found out I was pregnant July 4 3 weeks later I miscarried July 17, 2017 i was 21 .... now I’m 22 about to be 23 I’ve finally came to conclusion after that miscarriage I no longer wanted kids right now I wanted to start my model career which a few months ago I started . Well 4 weeks ago I messed around with a guy we used a condom ... but they condom got stuck inside my vagina with his cum inside me being me I go on about my life I didn’t think pregnancy was a possibility for me because of my horrible miscarriage last year .. just 3 days ago i notice my period didn’t start on the day it was suppose to which was June 27 , 2018 .. so that very morning it didn’t come on I went and got a test .. I took the test before work and the line didn’t immediately pop up so I was jumping up and down happy to know i wasn’t pregnant but suddenly I looked again and it was a faint line and I instantly cried and decided I couldn’t keep this baby I’m 4 weeks and 3 days as of today it’s just so weird to me because I literally wasn’t planning a child but that baby last year I did plan .. but it didn’t make it , it creeped me out because I found out exactly around the same time as last year and still have the same month i was due last year .. is it God ? Because I wasn’t planning ? Is it possible that this one will make it ? At first I didn’t want it but now I do .. please pray for me and my child because last year was sooooooo bad for me .. something told me god will give you what

you want when you least expect it and I TOTALLY didn’t expect this