Close to having sex

Ok so I’m a freshman that’s dating a senior from another school and I went to visit family that live right down the road from where he lives and tonight around 12 I snuck out and we met in his car... ik ah bad idea but we started making out which led to me sucking his dick and him eating me out I told him I wasn’t ready for sex yet even tho he had a condom and he was completely respectful ab it and understood but I was so scared we stayed together for ab 3 hours and Oml I feel like a bad kid and idk what to think help was it a bad idea