We’ve been waiting for this day for awhile , I’m getting induced tomorrow at 8 pm. I’m really upset I’m getting induced , initially I was excited to have a “ known” time to go to the hospital but now after doing more and more research I’m really scared about it . I really wish I could wait and go as natural as possible before going to the hospital ... we’re inducing only because my dr is leaving town for a week . FTM and that freaks me out lol I’ve been stuck at a 1 and 70 percent effaced for 2 weeks now and I can’t help but feel disappointed in myself as I’ve tried everything and couldn’t get myself to progress and further . Anyway I know I’m just rambling , I’m nervous as heck and have so many emotions at the moment and not one of them are excitement . Of course I’m excited to finally meet my son and to make my parents grandparents for the first time , but as of right now even that is out the window lol the unknown is killing me , I’ve never been admitted to the hospital before , never had an IV, shoot the first time I ever had blood drawn was when I found out I was pregnant ! I’m 30 so I guess

I avoided all that long enough lol please send any birth positivity this way , I need it !!! 💙. Photo is of 39 weeks and I’m currently 39+ 3