Tearing or episiotomy?

Peighton

I’ve been thinking about this lately and what do you think is worse? With my daughter I had a second degree tear and took months to heal. At my 6 week appointment they even had to cauterize it to help it heal 😭 even one year pp it just seems like it didn’t heal right. Would i have been better off getting an episiotomy? The only thing is I didn’t get an epidural. Is that why they just let me tear instead?