I don't get it. I am excited for this baby but no where near like with my first or second. I have been commited in the past year due to self harm and suicidal ideation, I am on a medication currently. this mom stuff is hard. I have nothing but my kids and guy, I don't speak to family and the few friends were non existent in my struggle. I just can't figure out if I am feeling disconnected because I'm aware of the struggles ahead or the struggles I've been in. maybe hormones, anyone else just feel not with this? I hate saying this knowing the struggle for many to have their babies. :(