My story starts off wonderful . I meet the man of my dreams. He is everything I could ever want. I was never jealous of what he did or looked at. But like everything it changes. I start getting ignored. Or texted I love you or miss you. Nothing else for hours. Come to find out he was looking at other girls profiles and porn. To me porn is cheating. And he knew this. We get in a horrible fight. He says he won’t hurt me again. Fast forward few months later. Near my birthday again find porn. My heart is crushed. The day after our anniversary porn again. Every time I forgive only to be hurt again. Then he straightens up or I thought and I walked into him jacking off to porn. I felt so unloved unwanted so very ugly. What was wrong with me? I was done. But I forgave yet again. He does better no porn or pics for 2 years then I find nudes from porn hub on his phone saved. I wanted to die. Just end my life but I couldn’t I have kids I need to be here for. We worked on this and it’s been 2 years no porn that I have caught or found. But I cannot get over it. I see it everyday in my mind. I think everyday about how I wasn’t enough. I’m scared to be happy. I do love him or I wouldn’t be here.