need a friend?

okay so I've done it all to lose weight but can't stick to it. I've lost 60pounds but always end up gaining it all back. trying for a baby and I know if I would actually stick to it it would help! my husband is really supportive but won't tell me when I'm gaining all my weight back to not hurt my feelings. I'm an emotional eater and have PCOS so its extremely hard to lose weight. I'm 5' 4" and as of this morning 201.0 pounds. two months ago I was 189.6.. I'm so uncomfortable and self conscious. anyone want to start a chat or something to hold ourselves accountable?