Stressed from this not trying not stopping bs

Ok ladies, we WERE previously ttc almost a year ago, and after like four months, I say something (I honestly forget exactly what, about our situation), and he says “we tried”....WHAT?! Now I know this means he’s lost hope. Albeit very early in the game, but ok. Well not me. We continue everything time we have sex, no condom, ever, and I’m worried now that if we do get pregnant (which I’m seriously feeling like we did it this cycle) I’m not sure how he’s going to react. Well I know he’s against abortion and would never suggest adoption, I just feel like it’s going to come as a surprise to him, but why should it?! What the hell do people think happens when you have unprotected sex! Anyways, here I sit, listening to his millions of plans for the future, wondering how our baby would fit in... 🤔 id love nothing more. He has two kids and is such an amazing father. I have three kids but was young when I had them, bad choice of fathers. (The two older are my boys and their dad FINALLY got his shit together, got off drugs, my youngest is my princess and her dad and I lived together for two years and never said I love you, he cheated w his xwife and I kicked him out) so now that I’ve found this amazing man and thought we were going to be ttc , well we WERE, this not preventing not trying thing is seriously like an anxiety attack every cycle we BD during my fertile window! Can ANYONE relate?? Am I over thinking things or possibly not thinking enough? Idk! Thoughts ladies?!